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Friday, June 24, 2011 - Musings by Jill at Friday, June 24, 2011
This is Letting Go
Musings by Jill at Friday, June 24, 2011
Why do i always feel like if there's something wrong i'll be right smack in the middle for you to point your finger on?
It seems like i didn't do anything right. AT ALL.
Simple things. Really. If you turn up the sound of your radio and sang your heart out, i don't complain, do i?
If you stay on your laptop for endless hours it's perfectly fine, as long as it's not me doing it!
Why does it always have to ME?
I really don't get it. Nothing i do seems to please you. Is it just me or IS IT REALLY ME?
Oh c'mon. Now don't say I am making this all about me again. Because you are so damn wrong.
I have put up with a lot of things (S@#%, even) as much as you did. Or you haven't noticed because you are so damn preoccupied with things that satisfy you. Don't think about it, don't stress yourself out with it, just let it pass, just ignore it...I AM NOT MADE OF STONE, YOU KNOW!
Everyday you complain about a lot of things. No, make that ALL THINGS! I'm getting sick of it.
Life was never complicated for me. I am just a simple lady with simple needs (and wants). But apparently to you, life shouldn't always be simple. It ALWAYS has to be complicated. Gloomy. Ridiculous. I'm tired of absorbing all your negativity. It's just unthinkable anymore. And did i say TIRING?
Lacquer Up!
Sunday, June 19, 2011 - Musings by Jill at Sunday, June 19, 2011
If there's one other thing next to shoes that tickles my fancy, that will be nail polish. Yes, a nail polish. I get butterflies in my stomach each time i see bottles of interesting nail lacquers, in pretty colors, all lined up, waiting to be plucked and applied lavishly unto my delicate nails. I guess my general love for colorful things is what draws me to them.
And so today, i decided to put on a purple shade to match the gloominess, as it poured all day long. I wanted to go out and get some errands done but the rain kept me in the comfort of our home, spring cleaning and basically trying to find something worthwhile to do.
And they instantly perked up my day!
I got this purple shade at The Face Shop for less than a hundred pesos, prolly a year ago already. It just sat along with my stash of pretty polishes as i played favorites for quite sometime. It looks pretty on the nails but i would have to say that Stellar Ella of Dashing Diva stood out the most that's why it has been and will always be my favorite. It's just a shame it is not being sold anymore, so i would have to keep my half consumed bottle then as a memento, when it's finally drained up to the last drop. I love, love, love how the color blue made a stunning effect against my fair skin. I get a lot of compliments when i wear them. Oh well, i guess i'd have to move on then to their latest Manhattan Collection then.
This boy...
Monday, June 06, 2011 - Musings by Jill at Monday, June 06, 2011
...is sooooo CUTE!
Especially when he says "I'm winnering!" Haha!
I'm finally HOME. AGAIN.
Sunday, June 05, 2011 - Musings by Jill at Sunday, June 05, 2011
Seeing the people's cheery disposition made me feel like this is going to be a refreshing experience. And it was. Well, there's nothing more refreshing and calming, really, than being with Jesus. The pastor's sermon struck home. I have been feeling a kind of void inside and i knew deep within that i am thirsting for Jesus' comforting words and loving promises. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Ever since i got here in NZ for a vacation, actually. What i have made of my life the past twenty-nine years. What i have accomplished. What i have failed to do. What to make of the rest of my life. I turned thirty here, by the way. And it feels sooooo good to be HOME. We have always been a closely knit family and i can't begin to tell you how i sorely missed my parents. Their genuine, unpretentious and unconditional love. Their generosity knows no bounds. I have been a witness to that for the thirty years that i have been alive and there is not one person here, in this foreign land, who never told us that we have an awesome set of parents and that they have been blessed in so many ways just by knowing them. How can i ever thank the Lord for them? Ah. I knew i have gone astray. And i know i'll be doing myself more a favor, than my parents or anyone else, if i stay close to THE path Jesus has chosen for me and go back to the Catholic ways i have grown to love and appreciate.
Oh. I have been especially blessed today. All birthday celebrators were called in front and were given sweet treats! Yay! (I chose a Crunchie bar from the basket, thinking it would be best enjoyed by cutie cousin Ethan and my son, Creed). A woman (who i've learned later from my uncle is their prayer leader) approached me and held my hand and uttered a prayer for me. Seeing all the people from this congregation lay hands on us (there were only 3 of us, i think) touched me immensely, that my tears started flowing as soon as i heard them blessing us and uttering their words of comfort and well wishes for us. I felt Jesus right there and then. And i knew that from hereon, all the answers to my questions will be revealed to me in time.
I am and have always been BLESSED, so many times, and it's time i give back the glory. AGAIN.
I'm On a High, On a High...
Friday, June 03, 2011 - Musings by Jill at Friday, June 03, 2011
I'm on a high, I'm on a high
There's nothing more to it.
We are the sea and the sky
And the blue that runs through it, yeah.
And there are some who say there are so many things I need
So I run or I fight and I crawl or I scream and I bleed
I bleed, I bleed
Well, it's a lie it's a lie - don't you believe it.
If you're fine then you're fine - it's all how you see it.
Oh, there never will be no conspiracy of happiness.
Despite some personal issues which irked me earlier today, i can say that i am HAPPY! And always thankful that i am alive, healthy, with the best family anyone could ever ask for. Although our vacation here in New Zealand will soon come to an end, i am very grateful to have been reunited with mum and dad, tito Ernie and family and was even endeared to cutie pie Ethan, as a bonus. Yay! Over all, New Zealand did not disappoint. It was actually more than i have expected - great food, awesome people, serene places, pristine beaches and great shopping, too! Mum treated me to more shoes and accessories. She even gave me jewelries as birthday gifts. Woohoo! Awesome, huh?
Fastforward to today, my favorite NBA team tied the series! What a way to cap off this gloomy Friday. It's been raining like crazy here, the howling wind is scary. 'Hope you're all having a brighter Friday, out there!
My Not-So-Secret Love Affair with Shoes
Friday, August 15, 2008 - Musings by Jill at Friday, August 15, 2008
In my relentless pursuit to find good buys online, i came across one of my contact's site & voila! i found eye-candies in the name of SHOES! Happyness!!! I immediately sent her a private message to inquire if they customize shoes & have been quick to add that if they do, i would order in all the colors available for the specific design i love. I have been through numerous trips to Janylin, SO FAB! and B Club just to check if they have the shoes i wanted. Sometimes they do, unfortunately, the heels would definitely kill me if i come strutting in them. Sigh.
So now, as i await my contact's reply, i am seriously hoping that she is the heaven-sent, the one shoemaker that i am looking for :)
I'm on a Roll!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008 - Musings by Jill at Wednesday, August 13, 2008
It's been more than a year since i have updated this blog. And today i was on a roll! Updating all my sites here & there, basically beautifying everything (not to mention obsessing on doing so) but it's all good. It suits me just perfect to do such since i'm still on vacation and would not start on my new work again until Monday and this has been some sort of a de-stressing activity for me for the past what, two weeks? Yeah, it has been that long.
I do hope i can make time everyday to write on my online journals, as i am usually very lazy to do so. I wish blogspot also has the same feature as FB wherein my multiply journal is automatically imported to it. Imma rejoice big time when that happens.
For now, i'd stick to writing my journals here, religiously (hopefully).